I've been BAFtized. I am doing precisely what I warned myself against a few months ago and have turned this into an exercise in endurance rather than a mission oriented task. I give reports of contact their due diligence and actions are still completed, but while I have fought to keep my emotions and passion for the mission actively engaged I have lost that battle decisively.
Through these past few weeks I have been preoccupied only with tearing the next day off the calendar and counting how many remain until I my wife and home again. I concede. I have become completely mission ineffective and I will not fight it any longer, but then I don't have to. In the morning, I will turn in my weapon and head to the terminal to begin those sacred 2 weeks of R&R. I no it will be an incredibly tedious series of flights fraught with stupidity and bureaucracy at every turn while the end result will be two weeks expire faster than anyone could imagine time could pass. I wouldn't trade it for the world.
So forgive me if the posts are rather sparse for the next few weeks, If I'm no too inebriated to type, I fully intend to be otherwise engaged.
To those who read this from home, I hope to see you while I'm there, and to everyone else, you'll hear from me when I get back, rested, refreshed, and mission focused once again.